Jeremy and I have been married for 17 days. For some, that may not seem like a lot because we’re still talking in days, but for me, it means 17 days of seeing the Lord in a completely different way.
They say that when you get married it all goes by so fast and you will hardly remember anything the next day. I had the complete opposite happen to me. I have a very good memory. It’s just how I am wired. I remember waking up the morning of, and going upstairs by myself, grabbing a ginger ale and slowly sipping on it fearful of what it may actually do my stomach. I remember watching my mom and sister get ready and couldn’t believe that I was the next up in the chair. I remember the moment the photographers started putting the cameras in my face I knew there was no turning back. I remember driving to the church talking about crazy things that Jeremy had done as a kid with his sister Jac. I remember the moment I tapped Jeremy on his shoulder, seeing him for the first time and letting out the biggest breath I had been holding in since the beginning of the day. I remember talking with my parents before the ceremony started about how proud they were of me, and my choices. They expressed how they wouldn’t have done anything differently and that they had prayed for Jeremy and I since the moment I was born. I remember walking down the aisle, my dad to my right, Jeremy at the end. I remember looking into his eyes, saying vows that will never be broken. I remember putting the ring on the wrong hand, and quickly changing it during communion.
I could go on and on about the details I remember from our beloved wedding day. To me, it was never about a wedding, it was always about a person. I never dreamed about what I’d wear, or what color scheme I’d use. I always tried to envision the person I’d walk down the aisle to and meet. I hoped and prayed for someone like Jeremy, and the Lord blessed in abundance. I don’t deserve him, but I love him with my whole heart and my whole life, today and every day.
In the months leading up to our marriage Jeremy and I attended a few pre-marital counseling classes with our Pastor. We talked through situations and scenarios. We prayed together and we read books. We were given material to continue to look through as we go further into our marriage and I couldn’t be more thankful. The one thing though that I feel like is so hard to talk about is how people adjust to marriage. Everyone is different, and each situation is different. Depending on where you are at with your life at the given time determines a lot about how you adjust. So far, it has been interesting. If you know just a tiny bit about me then you know that I haven’t lived outside of my parents house. I have been on trips across the world, but I always returned to my home. And last week, I would come home from work to my new home. I would wake up in my new home. No longer would I walk to the next room and have a heart to heart with my mom. I couldn’t scream across the house and tell Nathan to turn down his guitar. I wasn’t able to walk by my dads office and wave while he was on a business call. I was at a new place, a place where I cook dinner and do the laundry. I’m in charge of making sure the bills are paid and the house is clean. What a weird turn of events in just a few days.
Last week we started back at work. Alarms set for 5:30am came way to quickly but that just meant that when we were done we could come home to each other for the first time. It was the happiest moment walking into the apartment. This was our place. We cooked together a few times last week, and each night I made our lunches for the next day. Nightly we would sit across from each other at our ‘community table’ for dinner. We wanted to make sure we start the habit of investing now, face to face, and not eating in front of the other distractions life has thrown at us. Each day brought us some new adventure. It showed us more and more of how we can serve one another.. ex: every morning I wake up after Jeremy leaves I put the cap back on his contact case and set it nicely on the counter. It has also shown us a different side of the Lord. Marriage is something the Lord talks about so much in the Bible, and to have seen the tiniest glimpse of what He wrote about actually happening in our lives right now, it blows me away.
We’re excited to see where this new season takes us. Who knows how often I’ll write, but I felt it on my heart to share.
Faithful in the Fray 