Faithful in the Fray

i’m about to become vulnerable.

this isn’t something that i’m used too, but i feel its necessary.

yesterday, the chain broke.

&

the floodgates opened.

you see, i have plenty of people that i know.

but very few friends.

my friends are scattered all across north america.

causing me to be extremely lonely, 95% of the time.

i don’t do well alone.

thats part of why i loved being out on the field so much.

constant community, no matter what.

coming home, its a completely different story.

now, i’m not asking you to feel bad for me

but i am asking you one simple question:

do you feel alone?

because I do.

it’s true. i feel like a stranger in a sea of best friends.

a hidden face in the crowd

the outcast of the ‘popular group’

and while i know those are all lies

its all i’ve been able to think about.

i’ve been praying, praying so hard

that one day, i’ll be able to have a good community

right where i’m planted.

i feel like most people these days feel alone.

but none of them are willing to openly state it.

well here i am.

i’m tired. i’m hurt. i’m sad.

i’m alone.

and there’s no place to go but up.

i declare that i am going to be able to find GOOD friends.

that community will happen upon me, and that The Lord will put people together.

I declare that God will do GOOD things.

No more flakiness, no more wishy-washy, but

true.

honest.

people.

those types of people you want to tell everyone about.

the type of person that instantly makes you feel better because theyre a light

i declare i will be one of those people, and that i will find one of those people.

this isn’t the end, but simply the beginning.

the beginning of something simply wonderful.

declare it. believe it.